Writings of J.A.M.

Staggering across the swamp of pavement,
I noticed something in the distance, blurry,
yet palpable, and as I moved closer to it,
it vanished like a disappearing snake.
As did the ashes of my youth,
I knew this summer would be my last,
gone by swift and sweet, the taste and
color of cherry kool-aid stained across
my lips, still longing for more.

At the moment, life is pretty easy, we are finally done with all the new stuff in calc which is nice, but now we have to start studying for the ap test, which is a whole another thing. I really dont care about the ap exam, although I do in a way because it affects my math placement in college and I really dont want to start over in algebra in college, so it does play an important role in my life, because starting over in algebra would mean I would have to pay more, and more money just to get back up to calc. Speaking of calc, I need to work on my homework right now so that way I pass the class, passing the class is definitely more important than the AP exam so, thats all for now folks!

Through the eyes of a veteran

Wipe away the steam on the mirror,
find your true self, or draw a new face
but never let that hide what lies behind,

time does not exist, to those that can catch it,
as a clock does, it moves slow, just let
go of time, prosper in every hour, second,

make every moment count, focus, the golden
rule, broken by the slightest noise, gather your wishes
into a mental pond, throw out your fishing line,

and snag that golden fish, the prized dream,
claim it, own it, display it on the wall of your brain,
never forget what you work towards,

friends, the hull of the life support boat
during school, make sure there are no holes,
a patch may provide a quick fix, but never works

in the long run, choose your boat wisely,
make sure that each piece can take the heat,
of its own actions, and never let the water go overboard

and sink your boat, when times are tough, show compassion
for others, but never overstep boundaries, don’t act like
you understand every aspect of their life, give advice, but

only advice that you would give yourself, don’t b.s.
the important things in life, last night’s homework,
the final exam, it doesn’t pay off in the long run,

always put forth the best effort you can, and when
you do, you might find out that life is not as
hard as it seems, overall the best advice that anyone

could give, is to just be yourself, you can’t be friends with
everyone, but don’t let that bother you, you have a lifetime
ahead of you, a whole life filled to the brim with hope, wonder, and a bright future.

My real name is Jeremy,
My sister thinks it is favorite,
I believe it is misjudged talent,
I hope people think it is the one friend who cares,
Always there,
Never judging,
Undivided love


My real name is Jeremy,
To some I am hero,
Others, arch-nemesis,
To a spectator I am a genius,
To most I am “know-it-all,”
I am myself.

falling from grace, losing all hope, giving up in life, why is she falling, why am I falling, how can I stop, may I stop, who knows, will I stop, can I stop, all these questions flood my head, and all I can say is no I wont stop falling because that is not me, I must fall in order to find myself out, if I dont fall then I may never know the truth, what is the truth? an angel is that the truth, is God the truth? who knows I sure dont I dont believe in such a thing but maybe that iwhy I am falling, falling from grace, grace hmm it seems that word is thrown around alot what does it truly mean to be graced by something, someone , god, I have no idea, and may never know what is truly means, I live my life by my own fate, by my own destiny, to bleieve in a greater being, I do, but just not the god that everyone says I have to believe in in order to go to a better place, I would rather fall fall into oblivion, hell even just so that I can know for sure, and spend an enternity learning my lesson, but what if there is nothing after death>? i like to believe in reincarnation, that we all are reborn again as something different, something better or worse bdepending on what we did in our past lifes, I love to believe in that because it givees me a reason to be a good person, but isnt that what religion is for anyways, as a morla guide to life, as a guardian savior that will free your from a life on earth and spend enternity in heaven, but what truly is ehaven, knowing that when you die, your spritit lives on but you mind does not, so how then would you know? after you die we can only think about what happens, not what really happens, that is the main reason I am so skeptical about god and all of his rigghteous tales, I am not nieve enough to think that their is no higher being, something beigger than us, but I just don't think that the church is the right way to go about finding yourself, andyour fate.....

a path that may lead anywhere, yet leads to where you want to go in life, this is my path the path of life is ahead of me, I cant stop travelling down this road because it is the only road i know, there may be crossroads at times but I know that I will choose the right path it is fate destiny call it what you will this is the path chosen for me by me, I know who I am what I want in life, what I need in life, I am the conductor on this long road of life, no one can stop me from reaching my potential in life, noone but myself, why stop the train though, why stop life so suddenly, I may get off on a stop, but that train will always be there ready to take me ahead in my life, lets go, get going in life, now I have to go, again, the train is calling me, I have t0 go, goodbye the life I have chosen is ahead of me, whether good or bad, I dont know what is around the corner, may I know please? no says a voice from afar that would take the fun out of life, but I need to know that is the way I think ,but guess what if I did know that would ruin everything that I would hope to accomplish on my own, if I know what is going to happen then I could lose all enjoyment from it, but is knowing my fate, my end, my death the best thing for me? who knows....

The closest I ever felt to nature, well there is the zoo, the aquariums, but all of that is man made nature, true nature lies away from civilization I think, when I went to gatlinburg TN I went to the mountains, and we stay in a cabin up there, it was so nice, trees surrounding you, the wide open horizon, full of nothing but blue, it was a great trip, but the best part was when we took a ski lift sort of thing up to the top of one of the mountains, of course there was a gift shop and all that but if you turned your back to that and just looked out on the horizon you could see the mountain peaks, lining up, the sky, birds, trees, the whole works, it was an awe inspiring mountain up there on the mountains, andother time we went to Rock City, that was another time I felt close to nature, the rocks were so interesting, of course all of the paths were man made and such, but still once you reach the top, it was the same sight as in gatlinburg, nothing but calm skys, beautiful mountain sides, and a gorgeous waterfall, it was a great vacation.

Leaving is such a strong word, it can have so many different meanings like gone for today gone for the night, gone for the rest of your dog gone life, is it ..... if you have caught on to what I was referring too, then good job you like country, as to what leaving truly means, it depends on the person thinkinh about it, for me leaving is about death I do think about it all the time but I try not to worry about it, if I worry about it then I start to freak out which is not a good thing, my grandma passed away, 3 years ago I believe although it still feels like it happened this year, she was only a couple days away from her 50th anv. with my grandpa, I think about it now and I still can't get the emotions out that I want, it is hard for me to express these feeelings for some unkonown reason, I hate that I can't express them, but to be honest I was not that close to my grandma, I mean I loved her and all that but I never really spent a lot of time with her, I regret it somewhat now, the last memory I have of my grandma is staying in the house while my parents were outside helping with my grandpa's garage, I went over to see if my grandma was okay, and she flipped, she started asking who I was, how I got in the hjouse, and starting calling for my grandpa, she thought I was a girl, I think i did have long hair back then so it was a simple mistake, but I look back on it now and I laugh it was a moment of complete sorrow knowing that that would be my last memory of my grandma but still I look back laughing, it was a good memoryl, I know she still knew who I was, it was the cancer getting the best of her, OI didnt blame her, I blamed the cancer, something that i couldnt control, but that was ok with me, if i cant control it, why worry or complain? I like to think I live by that, but sometimes life just gets the better of me.

My comment to Jennie:
Great job on the use of imagery, the last part of your poem is very good. The violin, softly heard, gently played, soothing sounds, it is all there. Very sensual, great job overall!

Noun

Inthrallment -Act of inthralling, or state of being inthralled; servitude; bondage; vassalage
Touchstone - a test or criterion for the qualities of a thing
Wastewier - An overfall, or weir, for the escape, or overflow, of superfluous water from a canal, reservoir, pond, or the like.
Piebald - having patches of black and white or of other colors; parti-colored.
Bullyrag - to bully; harass

Adjective

Disconsolate - without consolation or solace; hopelessly unhappy; inconsolable
Woebegone - beset with woe; affected by woe, esp. in appearance
Unequivocal - not equivocal; unambiguous; clear; having only one possible meaning or interpretation
Imputrescible - not liable to decomposition or putrefaction; incorruptible
Gesticular - pertaining to or characterized by gesticulation

Verb

Esquire -to escort or attend in public

Nark - to become annoyed

Domineer - to rule arbitrarily or despotically; tyrannize

Suborn - to bribe or induce (someone) unlawfully or secretly to perform some misdeed or to commit a crime

Immure - to shut in; seclude or confine