Writings of J.A.M.

falling from grace, losing all hope, giving up in life, why is she falling, why am I falling, how can I stop, may I stop, who knows, will I stop, can I stop, all these questions flood my head, and all I can say is no I wont stop falling because that is not me, I must fall in order to find myself out, if I dont fall then I may never know the truth, what is the truth? an angel is that the truth, is God the truth? who knows I sure dont I dont believe in such a thing but maybe that iwhy I am falling, falling from grace, grace hmm it seems that word is thrown around alot what does it truly mean to be graced by something, someone , god, I have no idea, and may never know what is truly means, I live my life by my own fate, by my own destiny, to bleieve in a greater being, I do, but just not the god that everyone says I have to believe in in order to go to a better place, I would rather fall fall into oblivion, hell even just so that I can know for sure, and spend an enternity learning my lesson, but what if there is nothing after death>? i like to believe in reincarnation, that we all are reborn again as something different, something better or worse bdepending on what we did in our past lifes, I love to believe in that because it givees me a reason to be a good person, but isnt that what religion is for anyways, as a morla guide to life, as a guardian savior that will free your from a life on earth and spend enternity in heaven, but what truly is ehaven, knowing that when you die, your spritit lives on but you mind does not, so how then would you know? after you die we can only think about what happens, not what really happens, that is the main reason I am so skeptical about god and all of his rigghteous tales, I am not nieve enough to think that their is no higher being, something beigger than us, but I just don't think that the church is the right way to go about finding yourself, andyour fate.....